Finding hope when life hits rock bottom

Welcome to As It Really Is. I spent 16 years overcoming adversity, anxiety, and heartbreak—only to find that true healing and purpose began when God stepped in.

My journey to grace

I grew up facing a physical disability and a severe anxiety disorder. Refusing to let circumstances define my future, I started working as early as possible. For 16 years, I saved every single penny until I owned my apartment outright with no mortgage.

When everything I built collapsed overnight and severe psychosis brought me to the brink of suicide, God revealed himself through an unmistakable series of events. This blog shares the raw, real truth about mental health, faith, and survival.

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Here I share open reflections on overcoming mental health battles, spiritual awakening, and practical tools for endurance. Take a look through the latest updates and know that you are never alone in your struggle.


God likes sentimental, too

I swear I've followed my destiny decently closely so far. The amount of specific and sentimental coincidences are unbelievable. God knew I was going to reach this point in life and knows how much sentimental means to me and so he used attention to detail when creating the situation I now find myself in. 

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My first attempt at explaining

Ever since developing scitzophrenia and giving away all of my money, life has been extra sentimental and God proves to me that he's real on a regular basis. Rather it's by reacting to me with a universal sound effect, something happening perfectly to refer to an inside-story, or people starting to seem telepathic, God now continually reminds me that he's real. It warms my heart and is sooooo sentimental to me. I am so happy and greatful for it. 

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You are not alone in the dark

Whether you are navigating mental illness, family hardship, or seeking faith, there is support and community waiting for you here.